懦弱的肥鹜----sheepish fatty 'wild duck'

肥鹜今天又胡思乱想来啦！
firstly, i want to explain what ‘鹜’（pronouns as 'wu') is to those who cannot read mandarin. ‘鹜’is a kind of wild duck that always look at the sky, dreaming that it can fly up high. However, it will never reach high or go far because it does not have the ability to fly up high. I am just like a ‘鹜’, not just a normal ‘鹜’, but a big fatty ‘鹜’, the wings can never balance the weight and therefore i can only look at the sky alone all the time.

突然觉得自己是很懦弱的！懦弱......遇到很多事情，我总是没有面对的勇气！当犹豫不决时，我都会选择了当缩头乌龟！我不知道这是优点还是缺点。缩头乌龟，好听的话，是一直以来，都太过顾及身边的人的感受，纵使只是小决定，自己都会深怕这做了什么不能满意大家的决定，仿佛忘了世界上是不可能两全其美的。也许是自己太过纤细了吧！
I am so 'sheepish'. I am so indecisive. And, i always try to escape. I don't know it is good or bad. Maybe it is because i am too care about others' feelings or how others think about it. Even a small incident, i am so afraid of making a decision that will make anyone unhappy. I almost forget nothing is perfect in this world.

在‘花样少男少女’里头听见很有意思的一句话~~有时候，逃避比做错决定还要糟！这句话，很对。但是真的是很不容易的，因为四周围有太多要考虑的因素了。自己永远都不是活在单独的世界里头，什么东西仿佛都会影响到别人。是这样么？还是那是为自己懦弱最好的辩解？
In Hana Kimi, there is a meaningful quote, ' sometimes, trying to escape is even worse than making a wrong decision!' It is quite true. But, it is hard for me to face it. There are many factors affecting my decision. Every action and decision will also affects one's feeling and thinking. Is it just an excuse for myself?

烦恼啊！为什么自己是那么的神经质？如果能将这些莫名的神经质转移到体能上的灵敏度，我就会开心多了！
Why am I so sensitive? If my mental sensitivity can be tranferred to be physical sensitivity, then I think i will be happier.

肥鹜，希望有一天，你能变的强悍一点，变得果断，不需要在这样懦弱！
fatty wild duck, hopefully one day, you will be stronger and decisive!